Far away in love

Thousand miles away

Locked in a heart

I write you a letter

From the lost war,

In our quest of desires

We left the only thing

We ever had with us,

Our moments together

Of laughter and sorrow

Our fights over the coloured sky

And, our giggles that lasted until we cried.

658 days and counting more

Not even one day went 

Without remembering you,

The scented candle in our room

Is replaced by white lilies now

To always remind me of our last time

Of the empty bed and the tinted blinds,

The books are kept off the shelf

Near the side lamp that we used

After a long day of suits.

The rain still pour slowly on our doorway

On the muddy roads and leaded windows,

I still drink wine at night sometimes

The other glass is kept on my side,

It’s the hugs that I miss the most

The kiss that I feel a lot

A remembrance of our days together

Everything is kept with me

Beneath this happy face

Maybe, I smile a lot.

The time has changed

And left me misplaced,

Can you come back?

Like, you never left

The distance is not what I hate

The constant struggle is a difficult phase

No rubbing shoulders, nothing to touch

The space I got

Feels a little too much,

Come back and feel my smile

Once again, I want to feel alive.

Thousand miles away

Have you changed?

Your images are blurred

And you whisper a lot,

Come back, you fool

It’s the hour of love

I still wait in the same porch

Looking at you

The way you looked before.

The day I closed my eyes…

I read interviews and mocked the epiphany

I heard them talk on radio too,

There wallowed tales of solitude

Of alcohol and drugs misused.

The mocking couldn’t stop until I saw someone

The man with a straight face and a smile so powerful

I followed his trail of oceanic scent

And entered a dark den of substance

Staying there for hours and hours

And chatting non-stop about the lives of miserable’

My life went smooth, and I stressed more.

He touched me and I felt…. sad

I looked around to breathe happiness.

Your see what you want them to see,

The faces curtained with emotions

Masquerading around you,

Smothering your ears with compliments

Walking past you.

I moved closer to feel the emptiness.

He left without saying a word

Confused, I noticed the curtains’ colour

The same pale blue that I always hated 

And, the walls of my room looked blank.

Days and nights felt the same

I spoke to feel my voice

I hung around with all my friends

What was I thinking? Yet unknown

Why my body shivered, nobody could tell

The day seemed longer, and family distant

My ears tried to listen but I barely heard

The work was good, but my eyes felt wet

The cheeks didn’t know,

Why droplets rolled on them

I was losing something of importance

In the middle of the night I could sense the darkness.

The sky started to close on me

The ground swelled with pride of flesh

A faint smile on my lips

As I looked out of the window

For the last time.

Because I am born...

It came across my face

Hit the slab hard

Looked back at the farthest object

And left me sulking in a hurry...

In my odd night hours

My dream used to curse me

For my life was adopted by others

And I could let that happen

For I could not help myself

I was born to bear the worse...

The fault indeed lies within me

Within me lie the extreme bad

For which you had to stand over me

And mash me till you feel sad...

I am born to take your heat

To slave my neck

Or however you please

To kneel before the strongest race

And wear the farce of my fate

Am I born to be a girl?

Or born as a girl in this pervert world?

Should ask God for the tempting assets I got

Or this world that made it appealing by its thought?

Being born as a girl is a crime enough

As age does not matter, we have got enough

We have enough tears to hide our pain

We have soft velvets to hold your weight

We have heart to render at our defeat

And we have eyes to see this all over again!